18th october

It has been a year
And I havent forget a single thing about you
And I know you know what it means
That means I love you
And I truly loves you

I’ve been thinking..
Can I have you on your birthday?

And I keep thinking a lot
I think I need you on your birthday


Would you come here for me on your birthday?
Would you sacrifice once?

Just once on 18th october

Just this time on your birthday

Just one night on your birthday

I need you on your birthday



Psycho!!

2:34 am Saturday

14th August 2010

woudnt it be nothing

Wouldn’t it be nice to just sit?

And look at your pretty face

Wouldn’t it be nice to just smile?

And analyze your etiquette

Wouldn’t it be nice to stick around?

And watch you regret and cry

Wouldn’t it be nice to just tease?

And watch you fall down so hard

But that is you

I’m nothing like you

You’re cruel and you’re heartless

You open your heart to another

I’ll be loyal as loyal as I am

But nothing seems to be fair

And nothing seems to make sense

And nothing seems to have what it takes

And nothing

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for all of your time when you were with me..

never a vengeance

you were laughing
you were smiling
do you think you're happy?

you were asking
why i vanished
you dont know
what i've become
you dont know
why i cried
you dont know

why are you lonely still?

you were neglecting
you were selfish
i was selfless
for your happiness

now i'm bearing
a grudge against you

never a vengeance
never a true love
never get your love
never ever love
never never never love

i wish you were in my shoes

if only you know how it feels
if only you know how hard it is
if only you never leave
if only you have time to reminisce
oh how
i wish you were in my shoes
let you live in my sober life
never being able to put a smile
never being able to have a good life

i wish you were in my shoes
to feel what i'm feeling
to live the life im living
to dream of my dreams

i wish you understand how it feels
to force a smile on your face
to fake a laugh to be healed

to go out and hang out when its hard

oh how
i wish you were in my shoes

bukan berdansa

ketap bibir kau si manis
bertahan dan jangan nagis
beristighfar bila kau sedih
tiada kuasa selain dia
temukan ketenanganmu
temukan keindahanNya
kau kan sedar kau buang masa
dan hilang semua resah

lakukan lakukan
apa yang kau mahu
asalkan asalkan
kau tak lari jauh
pekakkan pekakkan
semua hamun

lupakan lupakan
deritamu
tak apa tak apa
kejar bahagia
tetapi bukan berdansa
kau punya minda
jagalah dia

be wise

being a looser doesnt mean you loose..
being a looser is a process to win..

if someone dumbed you, that doesnt mean you are dumb
that is because you shoudnt be with the one who can easily dumb you..

when your ex says that you will always be part of him,
he lied because being part of someone's life is a beautiful words and he shoudnt left you in the first place..

when your boyfriend live with another girl when you were still together,
dont leave him,. make him suffer,.. and then leave..

when your heart break,.
have a break

when you cant think straight..
just walk straight ahead and do not turn back

when he told you that it was your fault you guys breaking up,..
dont listen because he's sucks at making excuses..

when you're sad,..
write something..

when you're down, dont go down.. climb up ..

when you have no money,..
and you're sad,
sing out loud and cry

when you are desperate for sex, masturbate..

when he dont give you a good sex,
teach him how to
when your friends fucked up
tell them to fuck off

when your future sister in law dont like you,
tell her you dont care

when your bad memories comes back,
dont go back.. go out.. get out..

when you feel like crying,..
find a place that no one will hear, cry you heart out  and then get out..

when someone cheat on you,.
laugh..

when there's nothing left to say..
walk away..

an ugly duck who do nothing than judge others

who am i to judge you? im nothing more than just an ugly clown who always talk bad stuff about other people's life.. i am ugly.. that is why i bother everyone.. no one cares to bother me..

my name is duck. an ugly duck. i make noises. irritating kind of noises. no one loves me. just my family. that because they don't really know what i did. cos all this while, i've been creating bad and false stories about people's life..

i know my life sucks. i know im not pretty. because im nothing more than just an ugly duck. i always bother this one girl. im jealous of her. she's pretty. she have a very loving boyfriend. her boyfriend used to be my best-friend's boyfriend but they broke up because my bestfriend dumb that guy and fucked other guy behind him.

and this one pretty girl come and save his life. live with him,.. feed him love and good sex.
and i am very jealous because no matter how they fight, they'll always patch things back.. how sick am i?

i tell all my friends about how bad attitude this girl has. but no one seems to listen. everyone point their middle finger straight to my face..

no one believes me.. just my few stupid and feeble minded friends. i stick with them because they are stupid, they seems to listen and believe every false story i created. thank you stupid friends. you guys are my saviour..

i wanna keep doing this. i don't wanna stop. im still jealous of her. i wanna keep creating bad false stories about her and make everyone come to me and says, "duck, you're a fucking ugly duck!!"

the end.

face of fear

she dont emerge in your dreams
have she ever loved you
she vanished herself
and tonight seems darker than any other night
you're too week to fight

you heard instigation in your imagination
give up yourself and die

you heard instigation in your imagination
get out of that room

you got out and begin your muddle walk
you walk to where the music leads you
you walk fowards and hold your tears
you hold it hard
it slashed your heart

you close your lips
and hold your breath
you clench your fist and start to pray