my bestfriend's lie

i have a bestfriend..
shes beautiful in and out..
we've been bestfriend since i was 12 and she was 11..
eversince that age, we did everything together and we kept no secret..
and to us, it is totally normal if we had fight.. because we totally understand each other..
we were mad for each other for days and we cant live without each other either..
whenever we had fight, we never keep anything inside to spoil our best relationship that ever existed.. i loved her and i know she loved me too..
that's why we are special..
when we were in high school,
all the kids always thought that we were lesbian.
and we let them think that way coz we thought its kinda cool.. ( yea right.. )
and as the relationship goes on and on and on,.
we went through tough times together.
Everything we did, we did it together.

when i was 17, i went through my tough teenage crisis
where my first love was a total jerk,. (thats y he left in the first place)..
i was just too naive to understand and to handle such simple and stupid teenage drama..
i cried so hard coz i lost my first love.. and guess what..
there she is,. be there for me every single minute when i was down.
she said
she can feel my pain just by looking at me crying like that.
( and i think everyone cudve said the same thing whenever they saw me cry horribly),.
but its diferent when your bestfriend's the one who said it,.
maybe thats because no one said it and she's the only bestfriend i got and yea,. she said it.. so,.
i really do aprechiate her for being there for me all the time..
most of the time,. i always experienced things before her ( i wonder why ),.
like having a jerk as a boyfriend,. i remember she said

" i dont know how to advice you coz ive never felt this way,. but i know i will understand one day and i know everyone will surely experience these kinda thing,. which including me,. and right now you have to be powerfully strong for me so that you'll learn your lesson and you have to be there for me whenever i need your advice.."

the way she said it is different.. and it works..
its undeniable that every each type of relationship does have their ups and down..
we do had fights,. we do snarl to each other sometimes, we do had different opinions here and there..
but most of the time, we laugh together..

ave you ever feel so seriously comfortable with someone in your life whenever you shared a secret that cudve ruin your life if they spill that secret's out? but you just know in your heart that that someone will never let you down?
thats what i always feel about her whenever i share my secrets.. she is trustworthy,. enough said..
i always so jealous (in a positive way) of her life..
she seems to be always luckier than me.. in school,. everyone wanna be her friends,.
and every guy wants to be her boyfriend and so on,.
coz i know she is kind hearted (originally,. not plastic at all) and plus, she's beautiful..
but she always end up seeking advice from me,.
telling me stories and secrets that no one knows except me,.
because i am her bestfriend and she said im the only one who understands her.. truly.. :)
as she is now a stewardess,. and living her busy scheduled life,.
she said she could hv been happier if im with her,.
i trust her words coz she always meant what she said..
whenever we meet up,. we laughed so hard and even if we had those big fat full of shits life,.
it doesnt matter at all,. we will always feel better whenever we are together..

and last two weeks,.
we planned ourselves a nice vacation with few friends invited and few grasses ordered to get high to have a great fucking time together..
i waited for her for like two weeks for this vacation. but turn out to be,.
she let me down.. so hard..
she said she was stucked somewhere in China coz theres a problem with her flight there..
( i was worried like hell but she never answer any of my calls.. so i assume there's something wrong with the coverage maybe .. )
and so i waited for her msgs and calls.. but yea,. no single msg,. no call,. nothing ..
and then the next day she said

 "im sorry i cudnt meet you coz i need to meet Bad". ( Bad is her current bf )
and there goes my dissapointment..
and i tried to ignore those disappointment coz i know how she loved him,.
and how she always wanted to be with him and things like that,..
and so i ignore my anger towards her..

but then the next day she suddenly leave me a strange message to my number..

" im sorry i cudnt make it,. please dont be mad,. i just arrived from KJ,. i was stuck in China for two days.. i promise i'll make it up to you, pls dont be mad.."
and i was like

WWWWHHHHAAAATTT TTTHHEEEE FFFFUUUUUCCCCKKK?????

was she drunk when she told me that she needed to meet her bf that she accidentally told me the truth?
and i cant stand it i have to reply her.. i said

"i thought you said you need to meet your boyfriend.." ( without a question mark,. u know what i mean?)

and she didnt reply me until now..
things could have been better if she just tell me the truth, isnt she?
and i cud hv never be this mad if she just call me and tell me that she wants to spend time with his lovly bf..
i wont mind.. but i cant stand that she lied to me and she accidentally told me the truth and then lie again.. was she drunk or has she lost her mind?
i was totally disappointed.. and how i felt is unexplainable ..

but what greatbestfriends are for if they dont forgive and forget right.. ?
im sure this will be one of our jokes one day..
no matter what she did to me i'll still love her..
and im writing this because i missed her..